August 15th,Cloudy
I want to move house and call Lily.

I haven't dared to sleep or go out these days.
I moved heavy objects like the sofa and cabinets to the door.
I blocked the door tightly,afraid that he would come to find me again.
I really want to tell Lily,but...
What should I do?What should I do?!
August 16th,Sunny

He added me on WeChat.The verification message said that if I dared not to add him,he would upload a video of me to the Internet.
I don't know what kind of video it is.I really don't know.
I'm even more terrified.
I added him,and he replied almost instantly.

It was a one-minute video.I trembled as I clicked to open it.
All I could see was me being held down by the three of them and bobbing up and down in the sea.
I covered my head and screamed and cried.
I really didn't expect them to record a video.
What should I do?What should I do?
August 25th,Sunny
There are still five days until my birthday.Lily will be back soon.
I hope she comes back quickly,but I'm also afraid of her coming back.
If she knew everything that had happened during this time,she would definitely drag me to the police station.
But I can't call the police.I can't!
He will spread those pornographic videos everywhere.
August 26th,Heavy Rain
He came to my door again.He said that if I dared not to open the door,
he would send those videos to the community group and also upload them to the Internet.
I didn't dare to open the door.Opening the door meant being humiliated again.
But if I didn't open the door,what if the videos were spread?
He started shouting outside,and I still opened the door.
I planned to open the door and deliberately lure him in.
Then I would grab his phone and run away as fast as I could.
I was going to report the case to the police station.
But the moment I opened the door,my world collapsed.
There were three men standing at the door,and they swarmed in.
They grabbed me at once.
I'm so dirty.I was like a wriggling maggot under them.
I didn't know how to call for help,or I forgot to call for help,or maybe I just gave up...
Looking at my bruised knees,I really felt sick.
The pain all over my body reminded me all the time.
I'm a despicable woman who was played with by three men in turn.
August 27th,Heavy Rain
They came again,all together.
August 28th,Heavy Rain
They stayed here for a whole day and didn't leave until the evening.
August 30th,Heavy Rain
They looked at my phone and knew that Lily would be back tonight.
I looked at the lewd smiles on their faces and was filled with fear.
It's enough to ruin me.I absolutely can't let them do anything to Lily.
I finally summoned up the courage to call the police.
I took my phone and hid in the room.Just as I was about to press 110,
the door was kicked open.I was so scared that I quickly stuffed my phone under the mattress.
They grabbed me and threw me onto the bed.They all seemed to be in a hurry.
I was like a puppet,bouncing up and down on the mattress.
He stood at the head of the bed and pointed his phone at me.
He recorded all of this.
I stopped crying and howling,and I didn't even want to beg for mercy anymore.
I also gave up my last hope of help.I can't get better.
Even if someone killed them,I still can't get better.
I'm too dirty,and this world is too dirty.
I'm sorry,Lily.As soon as you come back,you have to deal with my affairs.
Please help me one last time.
The cowardly,useless,and dirty Amelia Thompson,written with my own hand.
I trembled as I clicked on the chat records and videos on Amelia's phone.
I clearly saw the faces of those three beasts through the videos.
I also engraved them deeply in my mind.
At this moment,I was filled with anger.
They persecuted Amelia to death.Why should they still be able to live well?!