Chapter Four
I quietly followed Gale to the third floor with the elevator. He didn't say anything and neither did I.
Silence roamed around us and I kept my self to my thoughts. I was still wondering on what am going to say.

I can't tell him that I love him yet, am not brave enough but being in love with him gave me a smile.
It felt beautiful and weird.
We walked down the corridor past rooms, some open and others closed.
I read a sign on the wall saying Cardiac ward and I smiled. Even though Gale owned the hospital, he still came to this department.
He loved hearts a lot, any anything that resolves around them and I loved wars.
I remembered the news I had got earlier, and bit hard on my bottom lip. It wasn't time yet but will I get the chance to tell.

We reached a certain door and Gale pushed it open, walking in.
I stood rooted outside, shifting my cross bag to the front. My eyes roamed the inside, it was painted yellow.
There was a medical bed and then an office desk at the other end, there was a board on the wall next to the bed and it was filled with medical barbers.
I never thought that his office would be this big.

I noticed Gale looking at me patiently as he leaned against his office desk.
I took a step forward and walked inside.
“ Why are you here, Amelia ?” Gale asked as his looked away. His voice was soft as always and how could I blame him.
“I wanted to talk " I whispered softly lowering my eyes. “I want us to talk about all this, that's going on "
“ There's nothing to talk about Amelia, nothing exists between us anymore "
“ But Gale… “
“ Am getting married… “
My eyes snapped up to him and I took a step back. I felt my hopes and excitement crush instantly.
“When… “ I whispered, my vision blurred and I lowered my eyes quick.
I remembered when he confessed his feelings to me but I guess it was a lie. He didn't bother to wait and see if I may change my mind anytime soon.
I realized that I didn't even want to know his wedding date.
“ I will leave… “ I replied and my voice croaked.
“Mel…  Are you okay "
I avoided his eyes “yeah am fine " but deeply I was not okay.
I turned to leave but stopped when I heard his next words.
“ I knew you could never love me the way I love you Amelia and It hurts. I agreed to this marriage to make my mom happy but deep inside I hope it helps me forget you "
I felt like a knife was cutting through my heart, I wanted to tell Gale that I love him but the words failed to come out.
I didn't feel brave enough to do this, I was just giving up on us without trying.
“Am so sorry “ I whispered, lifting my eyes to him. I didn't what to say anything that may sound as an excuse for hurting him.
I felt like approaching him and hold him tight, but I knew that I had no right to do that.
“ I never wanted to hurt you " A tear streamed down my face and I lowered my eyes guiltily.
Seeing Gale like this hurt made me hate my self more, I had ruined everything.
I had ruined our friendship, I realized that I could never fix this.
I sobbed harder, hiding my face behind my palms.
Gale's strong arms wrapped me and I leaned in to him, taking in his cologne.
I felt so afraid that this might be the last day I see him and I didn't want that to happen.
I lifted my teary face, my green eyes locking with his brown eyes.
“ Will I ever see you again ?” I whispered softly.
Gale held my cheek in his palm and I leaned into the warmth.
“ Yes doll, I just need some time " he replied my eyes locking deep with his.
“ I'll to miss you " I whispered as we held our gazes, suddenly I started to feel exposed.
My heart accelerated and my legs felt so weak to stand, his arms tightened around me and a shivered rushed down my spine.
“Can I kiss you ? ”
In haled sharply as Gale's words sunk in.
Words seemed stuck somewhere in my throat and my lips throbbed, I stepped on my tip toes locking my hands behind his neck.
I saw the surprised and shocked look on his face, and heat crept up my cheeks.
“Amelia…” I didn't wait for him to finish and crashed my lips on his.
Gale gasped in shock and I felt my body shudder.
I moaned passionately, I could feel the pain and hurt through Gale's roughness. My fingers curled around his hair, I pulled away when I was starting to feel breathless.
I gasped for breath, my eyes flew open. I looked at Gale and my heart drummed harder against my chest.
I loved him and more than I know.
Gale’s eyes remained closed, his cheeks flashed and his lips were parted a bit.
I wanted him to open his eyes and look at me but t was pulled back to reality when his eyes slipped away from me.
I felt cold and numb as I watched him step away from me.
“ Please leave " He asked, I didn't say anything.
I turned around and left the room, I felt like a piece of me was being left behind.
I wanted to turn to him and tell him that I will always be there for him but I stopped my self.
I stood silently in the corridor my body felt so heavy to move.
I held on to the walls as sobs shook my body violently.
It hurt so much, I felt like my heart was being dragged out of me.
My fingers moved over my swollen lips and I slid down the wall.
“Amelia " someone called making me look up in tears, I saw Rebecca run towards me, I guess she was also here to check up on Gale.
“What happened Amy ?” Rebecca asked as she squat next to me holding me close, I had no reply to give but just broke down and cried. It hurt so much.
I just couldn’t believe that Gale was getting married, I regretted reacting the way I did a week ago.
Why did I have to realize my feelings when it’s late, I would have claimed him but I also didn’t want him to break his mom’s heart.
I can't even stop the man I love from marrying another person. Rebecca kept whispering soothing words to me in order to calm me down but I didn't think it was working. This was the first she had seen me like this, I don't blame her for trying. I knew I was a mess.
I slowly pulled away from her, and she stared at me with those intense eyes that were sad with curiosity. “ I have to go home " I whispered, and she nodded not wanting to push me to explain but I knew that this day won’t end without me telling her what’s going on.
“I will go with you, then come back later “ she whispered, I guess now she was so eager to meet Gale and fire questions at him.
She whispered helping me to get up, I kept my silence through the whole journey until we were out of the hospital.
I watched as she hailed for a cab. I stayed silent and wrapped my hands around my self, it had suddenly gone cold for me.
“Amy “ Rebecca whispered and I turned to look at her, she pointed towards the cab and I nodded.
Following behind her I stepped inside after her and closed the door. I look out of the window as we drove off, my eyes pinned on the busy streets as if a single sight of them was comforting enough.
I felt a hand on my shoulder and turned to Rebecca who was looking at me with worry.
“Amy “ She whispered and I bit on the bottom lips to stop myself from sobbing out loud again.
I never knew that love hurt this much until now,I was pulled into a tight hug which I agreed to, tears kept flowing nonstop no matter how much I tried to rub them away they just came faster.
“ It hurts so much “ I whispered. I knew she couldn't understand what I was talking about, but she held me, soothingly patting my back, I sobbed quietly.
Finally, I pulled away rubbing my eyes, I knew she deserved to know and I also wanted to let it out. I felt like I was suffocating deep in me, my heart felt like it was about to burst.
I looked through the cab window again, lifting my hand and touching my lips. I remembered that last kiss, the passion, hurt and all the emotions Gale made me see through it.
My eyes fell shut and I whimpered, the way he had looked at me with his hands wrapped around me. How am I going to stay away after all this.
I know that kiss was a goodbye and it hurt so much. 
“Gale is getting married "I whispered, those words cutting through me like sharp knives.
I heard Rebecca gasp I wasn’t sure if it was shock, surprise or something else.
“Really “ She whispered, you could hear the excitement in her voice. I know she loved Gale as a brother and would definitely be happy for him.
“Oh my God, to whom?” I turned to look at her and her smile dropped.
“ Amy that’s good news right? Then why are you sad ”
I looked down at my fingers and whispered the kind of words, I never thought in a million times I would say them when it comes to Gale.
“Because I love Gale but then I am late “ With that last I looked away again.
I didn’t want to see her look at me with pity
“ Does he love you ?” She questioned calmly and I looked at her again before nodding.
I started to explain every detail starting from that evening he confessed how he felt to me and my actions then today through sobs and tears.
The cab came to a halt in front of my apartment building and I stepped out. I waited for Rebecca since she decided to pay for us. I heard no energy left to fight with her about this.
As I turned to walk inside expecting her to follow, but she didn’t.
“ You love Gale and he loves you right?” I nodded to her question " then what’s stopping you from being with him ?” she added and I froze my eyes going wide.
I finally turned to her, giving her my full attention, a few two or more people turned us but soon lost interest and walked away.
I pondered on what Rebecca had just said, wondering if she heard the marriage part.
She took a step towards me, looking at me with those dark eyes. “ He can say no to this marriage for you if he truly loves you… “
“What about his mom ?” I interrupted and she shook her head.
“ Gale’s mom can understand Amelia, if you really love him as you say then go back there and tell him What is stopping you ?” I looked at Becca and rethought what she had just said, was I just making this hard yet it is simple.
I remembered the pain of not having parents through my whole childhood, the torture of being called an orphan.
I didn’t want Gale to fight with his mom, she is all he got.
“I think I should leave it as it is “ I whispered and Becca glared at me.
“Amy…”
“I know what you're going to say, that I am a coward for not telling him how I feel and it’s not because I am afraid of relationships. I was willing to try for him but this thing between us can’t happen, maybe that’s why reality made me realize my love for him this late " I mumbled on about every reason I could think of that's holding me back.
I noticed Rebecca looking at me waiting for me to continue with a good reason.
I didn't think I would be able to tell her more, I just to forget about all this.
I slowly turned around and took the stairs then through the glass doors, I headed for my room yearning for my bed.