Chapter Six
I can’t say that my first day at work had started well. I mean who starts her morning with crying like me.
I slowly comforted my self and gained back my strength, After cleaning up. I could finally look around my new cabin.

I was surrounded by glass, you could see all the sky scrapers surrounding the office and truly this was a sight to see.
It was not so large but medium, and to me that was enough.
My desk was in the middle of the room and then I saw that black gown I always dreamed of.
It hung on the wall in the right corner of my office.
It was now real, I took steps towards it and took the fabric in my hands, I looked up at the ceiling.
I was lawyer now, my dreams had just come true but then why did my heart hold no excitement at the moment.

I sighed when I heard a knock on the door and turned around in time as a girl walked in with a cup of coffee and placed it on the table.
She held out her hand for me to shake and I did so.
“ Jennifer Madison, your new assistant "
" Amelia Rose “ I replied.

she nodded and then pointed towards the coffee and I nodded.
“you have nothing much to do, you have one meeting with your first client, he was here before you arrived but then left, I can call him up now so you could...”
“Give me his address “ I whispered and she stared at me as if to confirm my words, I didn’t want to spend time in here and think about Gale cause I was sure my thoughts couldn’t avoid him. I wanted to let go of everything for now.
“Thanks Jennifer “ I whispered when she handed me a card. My eyes scanned it.
“I don’t have his home address but that’s his business card " I heard Jennifer's voice.
“A gym? “ I stated though it came out as a question and she just  nodded in reply then left, I looked at the only file she had placed on the desk and took it in my hold.
I sat down and took a sip of my coffee while flipping through the papers inside, my eyes scanning everything, soon I realised that this was my test case.
I couldn’t believe that my first court case had to be about sexual harassment, I looked at the card again it had a name on it
" Kenneth Carlin Rogers Jr. "
The sound of it seemed familiar though I couldn't put a finger to where I had heard it.
Then the phone number and address. I placed the card in the bag and grabbed the file and my handbag then walked out, the desk outside was empty and I assumed that Jennifer had left for something.
I took the elevator and headed out giving the receptionist a smile she returned.
I hailed and a cab and got in then showed the driver the business card asking him if he knew the place and he nodded.
“It's one of the biggest gymnasiums around here “ He said and now I felt a bit  interested.
Not because I wanted to be fit but because I always wanted to tour the city but got no chance.
I wanted to see such places but I didn't have much time at my hands back then.
The orphanage I grew up in was in the outskirts, so coming here was always our dream as kids but with what life threw at us it would be hard to focus on the city.
The ride was so short, making me wish I had walked, then I would have spent some time thinking about my life but then I wanted to avoid all my thoughts today.
If I were to walk then they would drift back to him.
The cab halted in front of a four story building and I got out after paying my fair.
I stared at it for minutes then realised I had a job to do.
I slowly stepped inside greeting the guard along, the older woman at the reception desk looked up and eyed me suspiciously like I came to take something of hers.
I felt like her eyes were telling me that I don't belong.
“Good afternoon “ I whispered and she nodded before looking back down like I was nothing.
I felt a bit weird with the way how this conversation was going, I was always polite to older people but this person was making me feel like my politeness meant nothing.
“ Can I please talk to Mr. Kenneth C. Rogers “ now she raised her eyes again and looked at me.
It felt like she has a problem with me.
“His busy “ she replied rudely and I let out a sigh, her gaze moved all over my body.
I felt like I was being insulted through her eyes.
My lips curled in to a smile and my eyes shone with amusement, some people are just weird.
I pulled out my phone and stared at the number written at the back of the card, I inserted it in to my phone and dialled.
The woman seemed not to care anymore as she focused on reading what she was reading, the phone rung and then it vibrated before I had a male voice.
“Kenneth Rogers speaking ..”
The name was familiar and now the voice, I wondered where I had that voice before.
“Amelia Rose, your attorney " I whispered lightly " am standing here at the reception and don’t know where to go next "
I looked around the place as I heard a sigh from the other end,
I wondered if he already knew that this old lady had seriously issues and his reply told me he knew all about it. 
“Take the elevator to the third floor that’s where I am , am sorry on behalf of her “ he replied.
I hung up the phone and grabbed my file off the receptionist desk, I walked towards the elevators and waited patiently until it arrived and I stepped inside pressing the button to the third floor.
I waited patiently while leaning back against the metal, I felt like my head was starting to hurt. The elevator soon arrived and the doors dinged open.
I stepped out and stood in the small corridor for a moment wondering where to go next and then I noticed a girl coming my way,
“Amelia Rose right?” she said my name with a bit of politeness and I nodded.
“come with me “ She added and turned around, I had no choice but to follow.
It not like I knew where to go next.
This girl was dressed in a sports bra and a pair of truck pants with her chestnut hair up in the ponytail.
We passed the first two doors and then we pushed the fourth door on the left open to a bigger room.
It was all painted white, with a huge mirror at the front, music boomed through the speakers as a number of people did there work outs in front of the large mirror.
I watched a man pass through them, telling and showing them what to do. “you can take sit on one of those benches or join us “ the girl I was with said and winked at me with a smile but I just shook my head.
Exercises and Me have never been in the same sentence.
I looked over at the benches and walked over my heel clicking about the floor with each step I took. When reached at where the bench was stationed, I took a seat giving my feet some relief.
My eyes scanned the place and mostly every one here just to figure out who exactly could be my potential client.
My whole body froze and my eyes widened when I saw the trainer that was moving through.
His wavy blond hair was held up in a messy bun and his beautiful blue grey eyes shone, his whole face was brimming maybe that's because he was doing what he really loved.
He was wearing a black tight vest with a pair of black track pants, his lean body sparkling with sweat. His muscles stood out and I realised that his the typical version of what every girl out there would yearn for.
Was it because I was crying that I didn't get a chance to notice all these when I bumped in to him this morning or is it because I don't care.
I was entrapped in my feelings for Gale, I hate the way he was messing me up or how I couldn't just control myself.
I felt my heart sink in pain and I wondered why my mind just had to drift back to him.
My eyes  flattered close and I took a deep breath before opening them, I decided to read through the file and understand more of the case that I was to handle while waiting for this specific Mr Kenneth Rogers hoping his not who I am thinking him to be than thinking.
Becca sent me a message asking if am fine, this made me realise that my actions earlier may have worried her.
I dialled her number so I could tell her not to worry but she didn’t pick up, I sent a message hoping it would be enough.
I noticed a shadow roaming over me blocking the light and I raised my head looking up.
My green eyes locked with his bluish orbs that shone with amusement and something else like interest, I just couldn't put a finger to it.
Yes, it was the same blonde that I had bumped into earlier at the firm and what made matters worse is the fact that I didn't want him to be the Kenneth Rogers when I saw that he was also the fitness trainer here.
His lips had curled into a handsome smirk that screamed trouble.
There was no denial that he was more handsome up close and more beautiful than Gale but then again since when did that matter to me.
I seriously had to get Gale out of my heart and mind, he just can't come up when thinking about something else like work.
But I didn't that would be easy when I didn’t even say how I feel for him, maybe if he just rejected me then it would have been easy.
Miss Rose “ A deep husky voice broke through my chain of thoughts making me look up again.
Slowly the Blondie moved and took a seat on the bench next to me. I can’t believe I was so lost in thought to remember when they had finished the work outs.
Slowly people moved out of the room leaving me and him behind, I turned to look at him when he gave me a smile and held out his hand for me to shake.
“ Kenneth Carlin Rogers ” he spoke up and my eyes widened.
“You're.. Kenneth “ I almost stuttered as he stared at me with that amusement in his eyes again.
It was the second time I caught that look in his eyes, I lowered my eyes and I wondered when I had become so amusing.
And then I had to grasp my shame, the same man that saw me cry in the morning was my client but then again what did I expect after seeing him here.
Was I just too lost in thought about Gale to pick up pieces about my job.
I just started to feel anxious, was I good enough to handle this case cause I didn't feel it.
I had just lost all my confidence, good enough I would be handling it with two other lawyers that I hadn’t even met even though I was the main lawyer.
I felt so cautious about my self, actually what I was feeling couldn’t be explained in words.
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“ That’s how I met Kenneth “ I whispered with a smile and Brenda stared at me as if trying to read my emotions.
“the way you described Kenneth feels like you and him were not on good terms“ she replied curiously.
My lips curled into a bitter smile when felt like her words were trying to figure my real feelings for Kenneth, I looked away from her towards the window and my eyes got clouded by a deep dark feeling.
I saw my past flash through my eyes but then again I had to continue, I was the one that decided to tell her this story after all these day then why not continue.
“Can I ask you something “ Brenda asked though I didn’t expect her to say anything else, I nodded calmly.
“I searched about you and it turns out you're famous lawyer that has been missing for days now, you have money too so why didn’t you have treatment right away when you knew that you had Cancer ?”
I watched as Brenda looked at me waiting for the answer patiently and I leaned back before a smile graced my lips.
“Cause I yearned for death “ I replied boldly, her eyes widened but then her curiosity rose more, you could see it in her eyes.
I waited for her to ask why but she didn’t neither was I going to tell her yet but then again I had to continue.
The more I told her the sooner she gets answers.
I leaned back and looked up at the ceiling, remembering everything. To be sincere I still wanted to die.