Chapter Ten
I didn’t know what to think as my jaw almost dropped in shock, I wondered if seriously Gale was thinking straight. Don’t blame me, we have been in this relationship for only one day and his asking me to move in together with him. People have a saying that things are moving too fast but can we call this fast anymore, this was over whelming.
Seeing the way I was looking at him he understood and a small smile graced my lips “ Your thinking about our relationship not lasting along, aren’t you “ he questioned and I shook my head. Did he know me that well.

“ But Gale..” I was about to tell him that it’s natural many relationships don’t last long these days and we still had the problem of his mom, how Can I move in with him that fast.
“ Our relationship will not fail Amelia, we will have problems on the way but not even once will I ever let you go “ he added and I couldn’t help but look up at him with adoration, I have never met any one with such a strong belief like Gale, this made me love him more.
But still there’s no way I am going to move in with him yet, thinking about that something else clicked in my mind. “ Uhm where are you going to stay tonight?” I questioned, now turning fully to him.
I knew since he fought with his mom, he was going to avoid her for a day or two. It was his habit, even though I wanted to tell him to go back and apologize to his mom cause all she did was to care for him, I knew Gale enough to know that I would be wasting my own energy. As I said before this guy is hot tempered and is stubborn but I still fell in love with him.
“ In a hotel “ he replied with a shrug, his hand wrapping around my waist and pulling me close that I was standing on my tip toes, a shiver rushed down my spine as I stared deep in to his brown orbs that had a way of capturing my soul.
“ Would you stay with me until then ?” I whispered. I don’t know what got in to me but that question was out before I could stop it, even though it wasn’t intended I couldn’t help waiting for the answer anxiously.

What happened to not leaving together yet, it seems I don’t want to part ways with him always.
“ When I asked we stay together, you didn’t seem okay with it and now you want me to stay here with you ?” he replied with amusement and a smile. I didn’t know what to say yet. My cheeks flashed hot and my eyes lowered, suddenly his white dress shirt seemed interesting to me.
“ I..” What was I to say in order to explain this properly.
“ It’s okay, I will stay with you “ he replied with a chuckle that vibrated through my whole body, my eyes slowly raised and I noticed that he should always smile, he was so beautiful in his own way.

Some how it tugged on my heart and I couldn’t even look away from him, I threw my arms around his neck and raised my self more placing my lips on his lightly, I never knew when I became this bold but I already am so what’s the reason to take a step back.
Everything seemed new yet beautiful and amazing, I guess now I know how it feels to love and be loved.
I guess when people say it’s indescribable they are really true.
“Am getting more intrigued with your story “ Brenda said the minute I had shut up, I grabbed a glass of water off the table and dawned all its contents down my throat. Telling my story and remembering the way things were between me and Gale got me hurt.
I couldn’t stop the tears that fell down my cheeks, the way his memories kept playing in mind.
His eyes, that smile I really did miss him so much. Then how could I have ever thought that I could get him out of my heart, how was I ever going to commit that mistake while seeing it.
When was I ever going to understand that his the only man I can love yet I am not with him today cause of my stupidity.
“ Amelia “ I heard Brenda’s voice reach out to me but I couldn’t even look up, pulling my knees to my chest I sobbed loudly, I was tired of keep it in and acting strong.
It hurt soon damn much, my heart ached so much, I was tired of carrying this pain with me so I was letting it out. I was showing my vulnerability and pain.
Two arms wrapped around me as wild sobs wrecked my body. I really needed more comfort than this cause I didn’t think I would stop any moment from now.
That’s why I never wanted any chemotherapy, I just wanted to die and be off this world. I am tired of fighting the depression within me, no one even knew that I felt depressed.
I always felt like this when I am alone, thinking of Gale’s kisses always made me feel alone.
Is this the kind of life that I will leave after my chemotherapy, I will have every single thing that the world yearns for cars, houses, all the money yet my fear will always live with me.
I still will be lonely without even the man that loves or let’s say loved me.
I don’t deserve to live at all, what’s left for me in this world to look up to.
“ I can’t take it any more “ I whispered to myself, I forcefully pushed Brenda that she staggered a few feet away staring at me with wild eyes but I didn’t care any more.
I wrapped my arms around myself and rocked my body.
“I want to die “ was the same sentence that I kept reciting through my tears, slowly I started to calm down, my sobs turning in to hiccups. I wanted to sleep my pain away.
Slowly my eyes started to close but then I felt it, the earth crushing pain in my body. I screamed loudly as I let my body go, a whimper escaped my lips as another pain shot through my body.
The wounds and bleeding on my arms. My doctor and nurses ran in to the room and started to do the same thing that they always did whenever I was in such a condition.
I slowly closed my eyes, tears fell down my cheeks but now I was starting to give up. I remember saying that I will fight but then I didn’t want to fight any more.
Under my closed eyed lids, I started to see a familiar face. That smile that I was addicted to and those brown orbs. I wanted to stay here where I can see him.
“Gale “ I whispered and now every thing started to get clear, I could see him now, my man.
“ Why did you leave me ?” I asked but then got no answer as he started to disappear away from me.
“ Gale “ I cried trying to grab on to his arm to stop him but then every where became bright and I couldn’t see him anymore.
I cried for him, screaming his name so he could come back to me and be with me like it should be, he had to stay by my side even in moments like this.
I wanted my Gale back.
God I want my Gale back
I cried for my pain and torture not even realizing that I was unconscious already, I was in a world I didn’t want to come out of.
The emptiness that surrounded me made me drown in my fears of being lonely, every one always left me and I knew it.
First it was my mom now my Gale, Is this how it was made for me, my happiness to always be snatched from my fingers and I end up being left to hang around.
Memories started to play in front of me like a movie and tears continued to flow from my eyes.
Sleeping on the same bed as Gale was overwhelming, he had his arms wrapped around me through the whole night and I finally I found out one more new thing I never knew, he snores.
A slow smile grabbing my lips as sleep took me too in a world of dreams, Finally I understood that I want to spend the rest of my life with him every inch of it.
That’s how I knew that the feelings I have for this man where more serious than I thought.
We kept talking about our lives and I also realised that yes, I also believe that we would last, I felt it in my heart. I started to rethink my decision of moving in with him and seriously why not, if things want to go fast then we can take it fast.
A beautiful night is always the shorter one, morning came earlier than I expected it, my alarm rung loudly and I groaned holding out my arm I finally found it and turned it off.
I still yearned for my sleep but damn I had to get to work earlier, I had Kenneth’s court session today and I had to prepare everything.
I lifted my self on my elbows and slowly looked around the room and my eyes fell on him, he was still sound a sleep. I smiled lightly then moved forward towards him, looking at him carefully, I couldn’t help placing a light kiss on his cheek.
I was starting to think his more beautiful than me, the more I think of it the more I believe it, I got off bed and ran in to shower or else I was going to be late for my first court session.
Having a quick shower, I dressed up in a short black skirt and white dress long sleeved shirt as I was buttoning it up, two wrapped around my waist from behind. I looked at Gale through the mirror and smiled.
“A good morning to you “ he whispered in my ear, his voice husky and beautiful vibrating through  my body. I turned around in his arms and stared at him.
“ I have to go work “ I whispered and smiled slowly as he placed a Kiss on my forehead. Before Letting go “ Me too but  I am going to miss  you " placing one last kiss on my forehead he walked in to the bathroom and I sighed.
If leaving with Gale was going to be like this then that means that I am up for it, and tucking my shirt properly I wore my coat and pulled my hair up in a tight bun.
“ Gale “ I called from outside the bathroom door and he pulled it open, he was still dressed up which made me sigh yet at the same time my cheeks flashed at my silly thoughts.
“ I wanted to tell you that I should be living now “ I whispered and he nodded but then he turned to me leaning against the sink.
“ What do you think about us living together ?” he questioned and I gave out a little smile.
“ It’s okay, Gale isn’t today your first day at work” I added remembering that he had quit his job for me.
“What are you going to wear?” I added, I had remembered that he didn’t bring any clothes along, taking simple strides towards he pulled me in to a hug. I gasped in surprise but then held him close.
“I will be okay, don’t worry about me “ He replied placing a kiss on my forehead. I couldn’t help looking up at him, there was pain in his eyes and I just knew he missed his mom a lot. I slowly raised my self on my tip toes and pulled him in to a passionate kiss hoping it would help.
I didn’t want to see him like this at all, “ We will check out the apartment after work, pick me up later " I whispered and he nodded, stealing another kiss with a giggle made him finally smile.
“ I love you “ He whispered
“ I love you too” After that I grabbed my shoes and bag then left the apartment, this around I left the keys behind.