ADOPTED HEIR **Pains**
Writer's P O V
Nathaniel kept whispering his apologizes hoping she'll hear it and forgive him. He paused when he heard something break inside her office.

Alerted, he stood up and ran in to stop her before she harms herself.
"Bastard!! Idiot!!!" Isabella kept cussing as she threw away all the paperwork that was on her table.
"Isabel! Isabel!" Nathan called for her to calm down. He went behind her and held her together.
Shocked that there was someone around and the person happens to be the one person causing her her pains. She struggled to get out of his hold but he was just too strong.
"Let go of me, Nathan. Let go!!" She screamed at him.
"You'll have to calm down first." Nathaniel insisted.

"No!! Let go. Are you deaf?" Isabella continued screaming but his strong hold only tightened.
After screaming and trying to free herself from him for minutes and without succeeding, she calmed down a bit and it was only then that Nathaniel left her. He went to stand before her.
"Are you okay?" He asked but received a third slap on his right cheek.
"How dare you hold me that way? Are you crazy? How dare you?" Isabella shrieked. She was so mad at him.

He has the guts to hug me and hold me tight from behind. The thought infuriated her.
Nathaniel took his hand to his cheek and rubbed the invisible marks away.
"If hitting me will make you feel better, I'd be glad if you could continue." Nathaniel spoke softly.
"I regretted what happened between us honestly. After that night, I tried apologizing to you, I even came to your Grams house with my mom but couldn't find you guys. We went home hoping to try again the next day but... My father found out what I did and sent me to my brother in portland. Isabel, I can't imagine what you went through but..I hope you can forgive me. If not for my sake but for the kids..."
"They are not your kids, Mr Nathaniel. They are not yours so don't even think of them as one." Isabella cut in and warned.
"I agree. I agree with everything you say but please give me a chance..."
"Never!" Isabella hissed and throw her face away.
"I'll never let you into my life. Not after what you did to me. I'd never!" Isabella stated and made to grab her purse so she could call the securities but Nathaniel was quick to grab her purse.
The very act annoyed Isabella to no end.
"Give me back my purse you bastard. Give it back to me." Isabella demanded really furious.
"No, I want you to understand me first. Understand that I never meant to..."
Isabella turned and went for the door but again Nathaniel rushed to the door and locked it.
"Get out!" Isabella half yelled and tried pushing him away but Nathaniel remained there like a tree.
"Hah!! Stop annoying me. Were you sent to get on my nerves? Were you?" Isabella screamed at him.
"I'm sorry, I'm just too desperate for your forgiveness."
"And I'll never forgive you. I swear I will never forgive you and get ready, you'll be seeing my lawyer soon." Isabella threatened.
"Well, I'm ready for anything. You can do anything you want to do to me, Isabel. I'll take it as a punishment to what I did back then. I'm ready for your punishment." Nathan said determined. His actions and words annoyed Isabella the more.
Tired from yelling and struggling with him, she went back to her sit and sat down.
"You don't know what I went through because of you. You don't know the amount of pain you caused me. You don't know...else you wouldn't be here. You don't know how much I hate you." Isabella said glaring into space.
Nathaniel's head lowered. "I can't imagine the pain I put you through, Isa. I know I shouldn't have forced myself on you, I was really stupid. I acted too stupid, I won't blame my drunk state for that." Nathaniel whispered feeling really guilty. Seeing Isabella looking the way she looked made him feel pains too.
He wished he could make it go away but that involves him sacrificing himself.
He wanted to let her be too but he was too scared that she was going to harm herself. He doesn't know how she lived, doesn't know if she hurts herself like some people when they are mad. He doesn't want to give room for that to happen.
"I hate you. I wish you can just disappear out of my life. I'm finally forgetting everything that happened in the past. I...I'm finally moving on with my kids. Why are you doing these to me?
Why did you come back to me to torture me? Have I not suffered enough these years already? Do you derive joy seeing me writhe in pain?" She asked with tears soaking her eyes.
Nathaniel gasped at her words.
He looked down shamefully. He became lost for words.
He knew she'd hate him but he didn't expect her to act these way? Her words stabbed his heart like it was a knife.
"Why won't you just go away and let me forget ever seeing you today? If you are really remorseful, then go. I want you to disappear from my life and my kids life.
I'll forget you ever showed up. I won't sent my lawyer or anyone after you. Just go. Please." Isabella whispered.
Nathan fisted his hands into a tight ball. He slowly nodded.
"I'll leave if that's what you really want. But please don't hurt yourself." He decided to leave so she'll calm down.
Isabella didn't say a word and just looked away as he opened the door and went out. He strolled down the corridor, got into the elevator and it took him down.
He sighed and looked back at the elevator when he finally got off.
*
Isabella rested her head against her desk again. Memories from the past filled her head.
How she got the symptoms of pregnancy and how they went for checkup, how she ended up pregnant and ended up moving to live with Felicity. How she stayed indoor for nine months and how she fainted giving birth. How a CS was performed and how she didn't see her kids until recently.
It got her more angry and more emotional that she cried. She never imagined running into Nathaniel again. She never thought he'd appear in her life again. She managed to erase him from her head when the pains she felt was too much.
Her chest burned as she cried out her eyes recalling all those hurtful things. How dare he show up to my face again? How dare he? She sobbed.
Her phone started ringing after a while, she grabbed her purse which Nathaniel left on her table and pulled out her phone to see a call from Kendrick.
She cut the call and proceeded to texting him.
*Keddy, I'm sorry but I don't think I'll come home tonight. You and your sister should take care of yourselves. I have too much work. Sorry again.* She texted before switching off her phone.
She dropped the phone on the desk and went back to sobbing.
*
Sitting inside his car, he received a text from Jay.
*Hey man, how did it go? Need someone to talk to?* Nathaniel sighed and thumbed a tear that fell from his eyes.
He texted back. *Are you free?*
*Paul and I are waiting at the bar. You can come over. We're waiting for you.* A reply came.
Nathaniel dropped the phone and drove off to the bar. Like Jay said, he and Paul were waiting for him.
"Hey man," they both stood up when they saw him.
"Are you alright? How did it go? What happened?" Paul threw questions at him.
Nathan could only sigh as he grabbed a seat. They sat with him and waited for a reply which they didn't get for over 5 minutes.
They both became more worried.
"Nate." Jay called. "Is everything okay? Is she really mad? Is she that mad at you?"
"She hates me. She doesn't want me around her or in her life." Nathaniel gasped as he revealed.
Paul and Jay looked at each other worriedly.
"I'm sure she's just mad now, she'll come over it. You don't have to feel too bad about it." Jay advised.
"I feel broken. You have no idea how I feel, I hate myself for being the cause of her troubles and I could just give up."
"Hey, don't say something like that man. She'll forgive you eventually. Bro, man up." Jay said.
"I wish I can, but I can't. I feel like a highschool kid right now. I feel like I'm dying." Nathaniel gasped out again as tears gathered up his eyes.
Paul and Jay moved closer to console him.
"I think we should think of a way to make her forgive him sooner. It won't be good if he continues like this." Paul suggested to Jay.
"I agree, but what do we do to make everything work?"
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