When Mirela woke up, the rain was still there and she slowly turned her head and looked at the empty space beside her. Ascian was nowhere to be seen, letting out a deep sigh, she tried to get up from the bed but her legs were numb and she was exhausted.

Giving up on the thought of getting up she stayed on the bed staring out of the window. Her heart was a mess, she was hurt because failed to go to her son. Remembering how rough Ascian was towards her, her heart filled with anger.


She didn't want him to get the advantages of her and especially she didn't want to give what he was craving for but he just took it without any difficulties. Tears rolled down from her eyes remembering three years ago, he was gentle and lovely while he was doing it to her but after that..

She forced her thoughts back and closed her eyes but tears didn't stop coming out of her eyes. After a while she heard the door opening sound and she knew it was him who entered the room. Turning her head slightly she looked at him, he was only wearing his black pants.

Looking at his upper body, she saw it was filled with her bite marks and scratch marks. Because he wasn't gentle, she also hurt him. Then she looked into his emerald eyes which held no emotions.


"Am I going to get rejected again?"

She said scornfully. Then she watched his emotionless face for a while and looked away. She was both angry and hurt.


"No!" He muttered.

Then he walked towards the bed and sat on it. She wasn't in the mood to look at him so she just looked at the rain outside of the window. She could have escaped from him if she had her wolf. Her heart shattered into pieces remembering her playful and gorgeous wolf.

It was him who made her like that and it was him who made her lose her wolf. Tears filled in her eyes and she clutched the quilt tightly. Then looked at him

"Give me contraceptive pills"

Her heart was hammering against her chest, she watched the shocked expression of him and she didn't miss the way his hands trembled hearing her words. She was not heartless but she didn't want to drag another innocent life between them. One is already enough and now he doesn't have his parents with him.

"Mirela.."

His voice was trembling. Her tears rolled down from her eyes seeing the man she loved trembling. This is not Ascian Lucas, the man in front of her is just weak and pathetic after hearing her few words. Is he hurt because she asked for contraceptive pills?

"What the fuck did you mean by that?" He snarled.

She laughed coldly, typical Ascian Lucas is back. But she just saw his weak side and she knew as he said she had made him weak.

"I meant, I want to drink contraceptive pills. You didn't use protections. Did you always sleep with your whores like this?"

She scoffed and sat up on the bed. The fury in her heart was something that will never ease because of the fact that he slept with women. He was her mate but he just fucked other women with no thoughts about her. Bastard.

"I fucking used protections when I fucked them, I don't even remember their fucking faces or their voices. What the fuck Mirela? You fucking voice was the only thing haunted me for years. Don't fucking say this again"

He was angry so he yelled at her, but that doesn't matter because she's more angry than him. Ever since she came here nothing happened but anger shouts between them. They can't stay happily again after what happened three years ago.

"Ascian, I don't want to argue with you," she sighed.

"You always wanted a child with me, what's wrong with you Mirela?"

He asked as he pulled her to a hug. He hugged her against his chest and kissed her head as if she was his treasure. But her heart was broken by him three years ago and it was really hard for her to move on.

She loves him but she can't..

"I wanted to give birth to your child but did you ever want Ascian? Did you ever want a child to call you daddy?"

"If you ever wanted a child with me, you will never do that to me Ascian. Just think. You just rejected me as soon as I woke up that morning. You watched me struggling from pain without doing anything. On this bed and in this room."

"I just wanted to get up and fix your shirt but you know what I got. Knowing that I loved you and I would do anything for you, you just threw me away."

"You were so heartless and fierce as everyone said. You're a bastard Ascian"

She sobbed and pushed him away. She was hurt and broken. Every time she remembered that day it was a painful nightmare to her.

"Let me go Ascian, let's just stay away from each other like these past three years."

She wiped her tears and looked into his Emerald eyes which were already red. Then looked away from him.

"It was a mistake the moon goddess did. We are just two different things Ascian, let's just stop this" she sighed.

As soon as she said that, she was pulled to him and he crashed his lips on hers without letting her speak anymore. Biting her lower lip, he pushed his tongue inside of her mouth. Then snatched the quilt she was covering her body and threw it away.

"Asci.."

He didn't let her speak, he just kissed her with no thoughts. Mirela struggled but the more she struggled the more he deepened the kiss without a hint of gentleness. His hands moved to her breasts and started to squeeze them.

"Stop.." she moaned.

"No! You will never leave this room again. Not even downstairs"

He whispered angrily against her lips and pushed her against the bed. Then climbed the top of her as he removed his pants swiftly.

"I'll make you don't leave this room."

His voice was raucously overpowering, she was surrounded by his dark aura. He started into her eyes and flipped her to face the bed as he gripped her hair.

"Next time when you speak to me, just be fucking careful. Don't make me angry. Every time you make me angry, you will be the only one who suffer"

He growled and thrust himself inside of her roughly, she couldn't help but endure the pain he was giving her. She knew her words were really too much but it was the truth and that's why he was angry.

"The more you hurt me the more you will lose me," she said.

Her words were filled with pain because he was not gentle at all towards her. He was just venting his anger on her by doing this. Closing her eyes, she let her tears fall down freely.

She made a mistake by not listening to her brother and now even after three years she's still suffering both physically and mentally.

"The more I hurt you the more you will love me Mirela, that's the painful fact you are afraid of"